Annyong!

Hi everyone!
This is my first post and I'm not quite sure what I should write. I just spent hours surfing in other people's blogs and creating this one. I haven't yet found my "thing" in blogging or writing overall, but I guess it will work itself out.

I'm leaving for Seoul in 3 days and right now I got my hands full with "packing". I haven't gotten to the actual packing part yet as in putting things into my suitcase, because I have millions of little things to do before like washing my clothes, sending e-mails, trying to sort out my courses for the spring...

In these last days I'm planning to have Finnish food that I can't have in Korea. Lot's of rye bread, curd with blueberries, cider, salmon (that I might get there too), sour cream, Finnish chocolate... I think I'm gonna have to bring a Fazerin Sininen chocolate bar with me ;)

It's funny (and a little bit concerning) that most of the time I feel completely normal like I wouldn't realize the fact that I'm leaving my whole life here in just a few days. Like I've had a lobotomy or I'd be emotionally retarded. I could just say that "Yeah, in 3 days I'm leaving everything I know behind and going to a far out country I've never been to before. Alone." and feel nothing special about it.

But then there are moments when it really strikes me and I get these feelings of anxiety and fright. I'm going to a far out country alone! Please don't make me, I don't wanna! What scares me the most is that it is so far and so different from everything I know.

I guess it's too big for me to be dealing with so my brain has chosen denial :P

P.S. Seoul-e means "to Seoul".